To My Former Self…

To my former self,

I will never be the same again.  I will never be as carefree as I was once was nor as naive. I will never be the same free spirit that I once was.  I will never again look at the world in quite the same way…and for once, this okay with me.

I’m not the same person I was before my Bipolar Diagnosis, before my suicide attempts, before the hospitalizations, before my treatment…before any of that.  I’m a much stronger and wiser person now.  I may not be carefree and naive of the Bipolar, but more aware and careful.  I’m not that same free spirit, but a different one.  I look at the world with a new purpose now.

Bipolar Disorder did not change me for the worse or for the better, but it did change me.  The change was inevitable.  I’m still me…perhaps a little wiser.  I hope in the long run that my change is for the better, only time will tell.  Everyday I am little stronger.

So, to my former self, I learned from you and for that I thank you.  You went through many tumultuous times and still came out the other side.  You are to be commended.  You bare the battle wounds of a war that many know, yet no one can see.  I will continue to fight.