I haven’t written in quite some time. I took an unintentional break from blogging. I won’t go into a ton of detail as it is private, but not bad. So here goes…
I titled this post “Sanity Break”, but I did not lose my sanity. I will admit…I was under a tremendous amount of stress. I decided that I needed to get away for awhile by myself. I needed to sort through some of my thoughts, emotions, behaviors, just everything. So, I went to Ireland. Isn’t that what everybody does? (insert sarcasm) I needed to reconnect with a very dear friend I made back when I did charity work for Chernobyl Children’s Project (now Chernobyl Children’s International). I was there for a week and it was wonderful! I saw parts of Ireland that tourists don’t see. I have been before and seen the touristy bits. I just wanted to explore, work on my book, and think. Well, I explored. I didn’t write. I didn’t do much thinking and that was okay.
This trip was just what I needed. For an entire week, my mind was devoid of racing thoughts, actually any thoughts at all. All of my anxiety was gone (expect the usual anxiety before a plane ride). So, except just before each plane ride, I did not take any anxiety medication at all on this trip…none! This never happens. It was wonderful! What it taught me was a peaceful mind is achievable. I’m not saying you have to go to Ireland to get it. I do think a get away by yourself is a wonderful idea, even if it’s just the next city over or a few blocks away.
I do understand that finances can be an issue. Camping is a great option and can be relatively inexpensive. You can always stay with a friend. The important thing is to remove yourself from your environment that is causing the stress. If an overnight is not possible, try getting away for a few hours. Plan a nice picnic for yourself with a good book. Your get-away doesn’t have cost you a fortune. It just has to get you away. I do think the longer the get-away, the more beneficial it will be. However, you have work within your means and your comfort level.
Since I’ve been back, stressful situations have come up. I have caught myself falling back into my old ways of getting anxious and irritable which leads to arguments and that’s just not good for anyone involved. Now, I stop myself. I actively say to myself, “Wait a minute. You had a week of no anxiety, no anger, no racing thoughts, no jitteriness. Why are you letting this situation get the better of you?” Okay, so I may not say exactly that, but something like that. The gist of it is I recall that period of calmness and use it. I know I can achieve it because I did. It’s possible. So I keep using it and I don’t give into the anxiety and anger. Now that I’ve known that kind of peace, I don’t want to give it up.
The moral of this post, take time for yourself. It is not only good for you, but the ones around you as well. My household is a much happier household now that I took a little time for me. It may seem selfish to someone on the outside, but it’s not. It’s survival.